♥BIGGEST JERK I HAVE EVER MET (Tuesday, October 10, 2006 / 7:48 pm)
yesterday was my most happening day and my most 'dao-mei' day too.
within a day, i received so many shocks that could have attributed to all the
shocks i have gotten for the last year.
this gonna be the longest entry i gonna blog in the whole year.
i shall crown this guy F- one who always asked me to go studying wif him
as the BIGGEST JERK OF THE YEAR!!!!
i wanna scream. i wanna revenge. i wanna tear this particular person apart.
Shock no. 1:
My fren told me tt the jerk went out wif my gf, I, on last fri.
Much tt i saw tt coming, nevertheless, I feel despaired.
I was disappointed in him, my gf and me.
The situation is this...
Jerk called me on last fri to tell me tt he was going out wif his guy fren tt day to NUS for Overseas industrial attachment talk.
I still remember vividly tt he answered casually, ' It's a guy fren.'
But turns out tt it's my gf he went out wif.
I felt stupid tt i actually believed tt the story he cooked up 'Guess wad? wasted my time
coz in the end it's the deadline for NTU' so 'his friend' cannot even sign up...
F*** wad a liar...
Shock 2:
My gf, I, told S-my other best friend abt it, and asked S not to tell me.
The fact tt they went out secretly irks me, but her gesture appalls me.
So much for a 2 year fren, though all e while,
i din expect much loyalty and friendship frm her.
Still, i felt like a fool.
Shock 3:
I called gf, I, up to tok.
Gf, I, told me tt they din go NUS at all.
They were out at esplanade watching movie.
Jerk initiated the date and they sat together at couple seats during movie.
Jerk initiated touching her hand during the movie.
Jerk initiated kissing her hand in the theater, and
Jerk hugged her and they locked in kisses for several times.
How busy was he...to think tt he even told me e whole story of the movie.
Wad the hell... he said tt was SCOPE.
Now i'm beginning to think tt maybe he is not watching tt movie after all....when Jerk sent her hm, he still hugged n kissed her. n yeah they stayed till 3am in the morning...
Guess wad he said to her when my gf, I, wans an assurance from him?
'I dunno....dun think of it....juz enjoy the moment."
F***, IT'S SO OBVIOUS TT HE'S TOYING WIF HER!!!!!!!
N MY FREN BELIEVED HIM....
Shock 4:
My gf, I, told me tt she din regret it coz she did enjoy the moment.
Seriously, though i din wan to blame it on her, i feel tt her behaviour is too easy and cheap lor.
It's her tt make it coming lor...she made herself a possible prey.
But anyway tt's her...always so sociable and friendly...
I din she is not 'si xin' yet...
She wans me to keep him in the dark for the time being.
Dun let him noe tt we noe e real truth. All right,
so i have to act cool for the moment.
Things tt bother me are tt I'm not sure if she
could be telling me A but doing B behind my back (as in jioing him back)
However, on the second thoughts, why should I care?
He's not worth it...I'm juz being my usual selfish and possessive side of not wanting other ppl
to have him even though i dun like him...
Still, he is not even fit to be my fren, i dun wan a liar...
I dun wan a jerk as a friend....
Why do i always face betrayal...
I feel so disgusted tt after he had done wif irene, he still called me everyday n chat like a bf to me. HE'S SUCH A PLAYBOY.
BUT DUN U THINK EVERYTHING IS SO FAMILIAR? Yeah, it's all from the JOHN TUCKER MUZ DIE MOVIE we watched earlier on. He noes tt gf I and I dun realli tok much abt our lives to each other in reality although we do hang out together occasionally. He exploited this weakness of ours so tt he could enjoy himself....
HE'S REALLI A BIG JERK...I WANNA KILL HIM....
N HE STILL GOT THE CHEEK TO ASK ME GO DRINKING TODAY AND CLUBBING ON THUR. I NOE HIS NEXT TARGET IS ME COZ SO FAR HE HAS NO CHANCE TO TOUCH ME YET....
BUT i REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF TT I DIN PROVIDE HIM THE CHANCE TO EVER TOUCH ME!
----ok fine----let's tok abt today.
I realli tired today, perhaps frm the long talks yesterday.
but very happy tt my prof emailed me to say tt my outline is excellent.
i'm so proud of myself tt my 1st outline is so successful, meaning tt i dun have to redo whereas
my frenz had to do it for 3 times...
n prof told me tt he looked forward to seeing my essay.
stress lor...but i'm very happy.
intend to do well in this mod since my trans mod is almost gone case...
i'm oso proud of myself tt i rejected Jerk F harshly of not going studying wif him today
while he wait for his sports cell meeting...
i'm not any one stupid or anyone's sparetyre...
i'm a precious individual tt my family n fren love...
oso, maybe i wan to go for welfare cell.
maybe, i need to go meet new guys...lol
but welfare cell wun have much guys i guess...
need to go study for euro test now.
wish me luck in finding a good guy next round....
i will survive...
