♥Last Week (Saturday, January 16, 2010 / 6:12 pm)
I'm seriously tired.
Fell ill suddenly on Monday night with fever, flu and cough. Everything you wouldn't want to have when your department was having events that you couldn't afford to make yourself absent.
Slept from 11.30pm-9am this morning. Headed to Korean class, came back at 12noon, ate lunch and slept till 4pm.
The last 5 days wore me out for sure. Have been clocking OT hours which I hope is a good thing when I receive pay next month.
Last week was an emotionally and physically drained week.
With the release of 'O' level results on Mon, I found myself facing parents and students who failed to meet the mark to Poly entrance.
There were many who came with distinctions for all other subjects except for English and Mathematics. Some parents were nice enough to note that their children were largely to blame for their undesirable results. Some, however, were unthoughtful in their words when they insisted on doing appeal for their children and blamed the school for rejecting them. Some kids came to cry and beg for entry.
For once, I truly understand the notion of the Chinese proverb, '早知如此，又何必当初?’
Since you know there's a possibility of not meeting the mark, you should have worked harder when you prepare for 'O' levels.
I know I may sound mean and insensitive but it was all because I was in the similar situation as them.
The experience during the event sort of brought me back to the time when I was in Secondary 4. I was placed in a class during Secondary 3 where everyone was very powerful in humanities and language. We could score distinction in English, Literature, History and Geography but when it came to Mathematics, almost everyone in my class can barely pass. We hated every Mathematics teacher because they would sneer at us and critcise that how we were going to be a disgrace to school when 'O' level results release. They made me hate Maths even more. I din even bother to work hard on it even if I failed every Maths paper during my secondary school years.
However, during sec 4, after my mid-year examination in May, I realised that I could barely score 35 marks for my Maths paper.
I was then told by my form teacher that if I can't pass Maths, I would have to go ITE because that was the only avenue for students who fail Maths. After the conversation with my form teacher, I went online to check if what my form teacher had conveyed to me was accurate. (lol...I thought she was trying to intimidate me)
At that time, it dawned to me that I have to decide what I really want in my life and if ITE is where I want to end up in eventually.
I guess, most people would not want to go ITE. So after that incident, I told my mum I wanted to get a Maths tuition teacher. Hence, I went for Maths tuition twice a week. Stayed back in school for consultation with Mr Fam (my Maths teacher that time). I bought many Maths assessment books and forced myself to study and practise at least 4 hrs of Maths everyday. As a result, wherever I went, I was doing either Maths or Science (my 2 weakest subjects).
I remember that when I received my results, I was beaming with joy because my efforts paid off. I scored B3 for Maths. I was even surprised that I could even enter a Junior College.
Perseverance is the key to success. (but i lost it during my uni years...sigh)
Another distressing incident happened last week. I lost a good and outstanding junior and friend. It was really a waste that she chose to leave everyone who love her behind and enter another realm she deemed suitable for her. She was a bright student and a lovable friend. Good grades, leadership skills and interpersonal skills. Friends love her. Teachers love her. It would be everything I would have wished for.
May you rest in peace and live happier in your next life. I will always remember you.
I realise the importance of treasure. I dun wan to live in regrets...especially towards the people I love.
