♥Writing to 2010 & 2011 (Thursday, January 06, 2011 / 3:41 pm)
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Shairy.com Dear 2010, Thank you for giving me a good year overall. You started it well by giving me the new love of my life, having Mr Right coming into my life and changed many things that I used to believe in or chose not to believe in.
With that, I have spent many happy and sweet moments with Mr Right, doing things that I once deemed as childish and visited so many attractions and sites like a full time tourist (e.g. heading down to the zoo after 'zillion' years, going up the Pinnacle, stay at Marina Bay Sands hotel and skypark, visited RWS, Sentosa etc) It has been the most wonderful thing that happened to me during the year and I'm very grateful for that. Moreover, half of the 2010 was spent with my dear sister abroad in Canada, hence Mr Right's company was essentially important to keep me going for the year.
I left my temp job and started embarking on the initially deemed exciting journey. I was involved in the opening of one of the highly anticipated projects in S'pore. As such, I went on my first overseas business trip and you have also given me a very good salary. I got to indulge in luxury goods and lifestyle and supplement my family in their daily expenses because of it. I purchased my first LV, Coach, bag and Prada wallet. I brought my family to Hong Kong for holiday and not counting some side trips to Malaysia and Genting.
At the same time, you have also given me the worst strain on my emotions and mental well-being. I have always see myself as a very strong girl, be it on the front or deep down inside. In fact, in the past, whenever I met challenges, I used to try my best to solve problems successfully myself and move on. However, in 2010, I strongly felt that sometimes it's really not about trying hard. I found myself crying or tearing easily and usually, it's for no reason or because I'm just tired or I felt exasperated that I couldn't solve the challenge. I grew upset at myself for this behaviour. I felt that no one understands me because whenever I tried to talk to them about it, they would turn around and tell others that I'm always complaining or 'This is the XXth time I hear her complain about this...'
Hence, in 2010, when I met challenges, I feel that I'm running away from them. My health has deterioriated too. I had the first UTI and insomnia in my life, and fevers, and took my first MC for work in July, (a total of 7 MCs for the whole year). My eyes were always red and sore and teary during night shifts. I know all these are a result of my MAGNIFICENT JOB.
Perhaps, you have given me this job to train me up as I was exposed to the other side of the world which no others could have the opportunity. I met high rollers, and got to see the glamourous side of people and the dark side of human hearts and relationships. Unfortunately, I grew cynical by the notion of marriage and family when it intervines with good wealth and fortune. I also thank you for letting me have the chance to meet celebrities whom everyone would kill for.
In 2010, I took up private Japanese lessons in the midst of my busy schedule. I am glad that persisting on attending the lessons did somehow comfort me that I am still the strong person who wants to strive and improve even though I feel so tired to travel down for lessons during my off days. However, I didn't manage to register for JLPT due to busy schedule.
I was grateful that you have ended 2010 well albeit its rocky mid-months. I received my first bonus and it was very precious to me as it was fought hardly for. I took the initiative to organise and coordinate 3-4 gatherings for friends no matter how tired I felt. (though, I couldn't organise one for JC gathering in time, but nobody seems to care either). I went for parties and oversea trips. Sadly, I didn't manage to exercise much too this year.
So, Goodbye to you, 2010, I hope you will bring the unpleasant things away with you.
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Dear 2011, This may come abit late but I sincerly hope that you will grant me a better year ahead.
Please continue to let Mr Right stay in my life, protecting me away from the insecurities and with our love growing stronger and deeper everyday :) and everyone I love to stay healthy and happy for the year.
I hope you will help me to get a new job which I can nurse my health and emotions back to good shape and spend time with family and friends. As such, I want to be a more cheerful person and for the new job, it will be better if it's one I will enjoy working and with less daily cursing from others and from myself. I hope this will be fulfilled within the first quarter of the year.
I hope you will give me the strength to persist in exercising at least twice every month. (Due to my busy schedule and weird shift timing, I guess for a start, set it as twice will be more realistic). Each exercise will last from 0.5 to 1.5 hrs.
I already started popping vitamin pills but I need exercising to complement my 'get back my health' project.
Similarly, I hope to be able to persist in taking attending Japanese lessons as I wish to take JLPT N4/N3 at the end of the year.
As I need to save badly as well, I should buy no more than 4 bags (branded ones) this year, open a separate account to save $ montly and have an overall saving of $5000 in that account at the end of the year (excluding daily expenses, overseas trip expenses).
In 2011, please give me more time for my hobby, reading as I have lost touch of it last year. I want to be able to read Japanese storybooks too.
So, Welcome 2011....please bring abundance of pleasantries and joys with you to me and I hope I will love you, 2011...
